Quarter of the Way There!

Tomorrow I complete my first semester of gradschool upon finishing my last (and only) final. Most people might thing "oh good for you, you're a fourth of the way finished!" and I think "Holy Crap! I'm already a fourth of the way finished!"

As I realize just how quickly this time is going to go by, I can't help but freak out when I consider all that I want to accomplish and how little time I have to do it in! In the next year in a half I want to: compose for orchestra, apply to doctoral programs, have a better idea of what the heck I'm going to do after all of this schooling, become a more confident composer, become more fluent in my composing, created a significant portfolio of works I don't absolutely hate three months after finishing them... yikes. As I list these things off, I really wonder if I'm going to make it!

Three more semesters to become the superstar composer I moved out here to become! Do you think it will happen? Hmm... who knows? What I DO know is that all I can do is work my butt off and trust God for the rest. When my confidence has been shaken so many times this semester, He has been faithful and gentle to remind me that He brought me here for a purpose. Still not sure WHAT exactly, but I must be faithful to the task of being a dilligent student while here so that when He executes his plans through me, I will be prepared. So I have three more semesters to enjoy being in the place that God has me, and make the most of it and not freak out about the end of the journey, because though I see a lot of fog, it is clear as day to the Lord. Jeremiah 29:11.